so i know it's not the time to be making new year's resolutions. but one chapter of my life is about to close and the next chapter is about to begin. so i think this is perfect junction to list a few things that i'd like to be working on over the next several months.
1. become financially independant. if not completely (because mom's paying tuition and fees), at least to a large degree (living, etc.). i've learned that the people who control your finances also control your life. so if i'm going to do my own thing, i've also got to pay my own way.
2. begin to establish a savings account. in the past, i've always saved up when there was something specific i was saving up for. but when no goal is in sight, i tend to be more liberal with my spending. and if there's anything i've learned, it is to have some money put away for a rainy day. so i have to start saving for nothing in particular, but just to save, so that when the road gets bumpy, i'll have something to fall back on.
3. find myself. i know i'm in here somewhere cuz feelings don't come out of nowhere but i've let myself get lost in the pretense of what folks expect me to be. i've had enough of playing at perfection. i just want to be me. crazy, foolish, determined...me.
4. get away. i'm hoping to be able to do this with toronto. to just live and not have to have my every move scrutinized. to let myself discover and experience without having to ask for permission. to not have to answer more questions about my life and what i'm doing or planning to do and when i'm getting married and whatever else they can think of.
5. stop feeling less than capable. i have to learn to expect a struggle and then teach myself to learn from that struggle rather than praying for smooth sailing. and when the road gets rough, remind myself that the Lord is on my side and He is faithful and strong enough even when i am unfaithful and weak.
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Good ones. Happy for ya!.
As for finding yourself. I think that is something that happens during an entire lifetime. I know that I wouldn't entirely find myself till I'm close to being on my deathbed.
as much as I'm doing and stepping into the plans, desires and goals. I feel I won't fully understand it till 10-20 years from now.
I think the To Do lists are catching on ! Well I like it!
indu: true. but the journey has to begin and progress has to be made. but you're right, we won't fully understand until we're observing in retrospect.
At least be glad that you don't have debt (or I assume that u dont) after college graduation or when you're making it on your own.
indu: i'll owe my mom some cuz she'll be paying living expenses for the first couple months until i get settled. but you're right, i don't have a major debt to be concerned about thank GOD and my parents for that! thanks for pointing out the blessing, i needed that :)
I had to pay for half of my own college. My parents only paid for the beginning and PBC (which is cheap compared to where I am now). They wanted to pay it all but couldnt due to certain circumstances. I got grants, scholarships that covered part of my college expenses. The rest was on a loan.
And then my car had engine problems and it cost me a bunch to get it fixed.
And thats another blessing that your mom is willing to pay for some of your living expenses. I wont even have that when I'm out on my own. I'll have to work this summer to earn it.
Enough of my woes, at least you're going to Toronto and getting your own place. It's a new chapter of your life. Toronto sounds really cool.
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